#do they work for brulo

[heartbeetz]

Construction is happening in my general neighborhood and every time I walk by think about it in a jazzton way. I wanna be the "old man standing outside construction site with his arms behind his back" but for Anton's demolition work. My honey. In his hi-vis green shirt and hard hat. And hopefully other proper ppe. He is grimy and he stinks and he's honestly probably sneaking drinks on his smoke breaks but that's not my business. Hi Anton..... ♡

[pizzatowerask]

Welcome

Welcome to the Tour de Pizza&Friends ASK! It's a Pizza tower and AntonBlast canon and original characters ask blog! It's sort of an experiment, since we used to publish our work in Russian only but we wanted to try and widen the audience so now we'll be translating our posts to English and posting them here!

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List of characters/artists

Canon:

Peppino Spaghetti - @tekumikubota

Noise - @onelittleornotthing

Noisette -

Pepperman - @rediconsss

Snick -

Fake Feppino - @milokchan

Gerome -

Brulo - Anthony Coomer (VK)

Mr. Stick - @onelittleornotthing

Original

Nuggy - @polinakotlikesthev

Ollie Cheesy-Cheese -

AU characters

Rob (Pizzaface) - @koshimar

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[ninasnumbers]

Do you do everyone’s taxes or just like Satan’s.. is Brulo in debt is that why his establishment looks like that

I do some people's financial work, not just Satan. Really depends. People like Satan and Anton pay me to do them. And then there's the others like Annie who swares up and down she can "Do them on her own!" Or that she's "independent enough!"

As for brulo, I'm not sure what his financial situation is like? He runs a mediocre bar and just got out of a divorce, so i can't expect he has much. But he and i have only formally interacted once, and that was when Danton came home black and blue for the 6 millionth time, and I needed to take the edge off.

[shadow-coolness]

*Anton is drinking at Brulos bar when Annie busts in*

Annie: Hey Anton! Guess what?!

Anton: No.

Annie: Thats Right! I have a GIRLFRIEND!!

Anton: Dont care.

Annie: Shes cute,smart,funny and shes a miner.

Anton: Still dont ca-wait shes a WHAT?!

Annie: Yeah we met in a cave i was about to blow. Sparks were flying….because i had already lit the dynamite.

Anton: Oh that type of miner ok….yeah still dont care.

Annie: Also shes coming over tonight so dont be home then ok BYE!!! *She leaves*

Anton: Welp looks its just you and me tonight old friend.

Brulo: Are you finally gonna pay your tab?

Anton:…..I just remembered i’ve got destruction work to be doing, SEE YA! *He also leaves*

Brulo:…..Why do i still let them in my businesses?

[a-special-ship-safe-space]

lil ramble about this whole piece bc its...reeeeally important to me

Brulo...means alot and its obvious as all hell, but like...why?

Because me and him..sorta lost things and it brings a big amount of comfort to me. and just.. helps me cope with said things.

I suffered with..many things in my life, lost things i will never EVER get back. And i know brulo probably lost his damn WORLD when he got divorced.

Hell my oc holly lost her world! she lost her kiddos, and her home!

but the ship..is basically about healing. And just. know theres always someone by your side and stuff. it just means alot.

I know its goofy for me to think about this like this but. i do love brulo. hes been helping me out a bunch even if it just been a few days. im thankful for him.

the cracks on the arms symbolize that..yk we are still sorta broken, but we are also healing. trying to make things work.

[down-to-helltown]

For the ship writing requests, Brulo x Satan if you can. Prompt/theme: Reunion/Meeting again

finally!! old man yaoi!! no content warnings for this one!

The time was ten PM; after a long day of serving drinks and tending to patrons, Brulo could finally close the casino and get to going over the earnings for the night.

"About damn time..." Brulo commented to himself, referring to the last of the hardcore gamblers that waited until the very moment of closing to finally leave. Shutting the door and locking it, the aged casino owner headed back to the tending bar. Ever since Anton and Annie got rid of Satan and his goons, customers had been more plentiful; made him remember the old days from when he first opened the casino.

Brulo sat and reminised to himself as he went over the bills; buying the place almost thirty years ago, the first few years earning him enough money to afford his then wife's extravagant tastes... but eventually attendence began dropping, and he began to rack up debts.

"Thinking about the past are we?" a voice said; looking up from the counter, Brulo was met with somebody he never wanted to meet in person again.

Satan.

Brulo backed up into the liqour shelf; "Wh-what the hell are you doing here?! I thought Anton got rid of you!"

"Well that's just the thing, there is no Hell; not much left of it now." Satan responded, casually checking his pointed nails as he spoke, side-eyeing the casino owner. "Not that you'd know anything about that, I'm sure." the devil added, sneering slightly.

"Not as if I had any other choice to help the bastard! You were messing with my business!" Brulo replied, trying to hide the shaking in his voice as it raised in volume.

Satan rolled his eyes. "Ah yes, this little casino of yours. That reminds me! You still have a debt to pay off~"

What he said made Brulo freeze up; "I was hoping you had forgotten about that!"

The demon laughed; "I may be thousands of years old, but all that time hasn't made my memory any less sharp, old pal." he slammed his hands onto the counter, making himself look larger than he already was. "I remember that day as if it were yesterday! You were an emotional wreck, drowning in debt, and your marriage falling apart!" he placed a claw to the collar of Brulo's shirt; "And what did you say to yourself on that fateful night?~"

"Th-that I'd do anything to get outta my debt... even if it meant I had to make a deal with the devil." Brulo said, gulping.

Satan gleefully clapped his hands together; "Good boy, you do remember!" he said, watching the poor man cower like a cornered animal. The magenta devil leaned against the counter, rubbing the bottom of his chin, "Its been quite some time since we made that deal, if I wasn't so busy with ruling over Hell I would have come back sooner to... collect."

Feeling the metaphorical noose tightening, Brulo dropped to his knees and began to beg for mercy. "I'll do anything else to pay off my debt to you!"

Peering from over the counter and down at the floor, Satan tried not to smile; he knew exactly what he was doing in this moment, everything he said to Brulo was a bit. A ploy to get what he really wanted. "Anything?~"

Brulo nodded nervously; "Name your price, just let me keep my soul!"

"...How's your wife doing?" Satan devilishly asked.

"I-I got divorced a year ago, wh-what does that have to do with anything?!"

"Oh goody, then you're on the market!" Satan responded, his tone changing from sauve and threatening to giddy glee. "When are you free the soonest? I won't be doing much of anything for the foreseeable future, and daddy's still looking for a lover!"

Brulo stood stiff, feeling like all his blood had been flushed out. "What?"

"Things didn't quite work out with Antoine, if you catch my drift. With the situation I'm in now, I don't have much going for me when it comes to getting a match; but you... you've got nothing to lose!" Satan explained.

"Except my dignity..." Brulo mumbled, slowly getting back up. "This is borderline blackmail!"

Satan waved that off; "If I was blackmailing you then it'd be your only option. You don't have to take my offer, I mean its just your soul on the line; and what's that worth these days?~" he dusted Brulo off and put his big meaty arm around him; "Besides, we're not so different! We're both fine, attractive, single men aren't we?~"

"I guess so.." Brulo nervously responded, first time somebody complimented his looks in a long time. Despite it being coercion, he couldn't help but feel flattered; Satan did seem genuinely interested in him, and he wasn't getting any younger. "Fine, I'll take you up on your offer. I'm free this saturday night.."

Satan couldn't hide his excitement, his spaded tail wagging. "Wonderful! I'll swing by your place at eight, I know just the restaurant we can go to!" the devil turned to leave; "See you then~!"

With a puff of smoke, he was gone; and Brulo was alone again. He rested his face against his hands, he got to keep his soul, but at what cost?

"What have I gotten myself into now..?"

[boilercity]

Thinking about the "remixes in game" thing more, I think it would've been cool if each level's cassette unlocked the respective remix (not sure how this would work with the different variants per level though). And then the special ones (bosses, happy hour, whatever else) you had to buy from Brulo like you do all the other extras. It's too late to implement this now obviously, but I do think that would've been a good way to go about it. It would've made the cassettes feel more level-themed like the spray cans are.

[merwynpersonalhub]

HOLLY IS SO COOL TELL MEEEE ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP WITH BRULO !!! and also about her weapon of choice which seems to be a staff ? idk just infodump about her i'd love to hear it

Im sorry my brain just went "YESSS" like danton dhdhdh im aorry whehe

ALSO YOU ARE CORREECT hehe (i need to find her old ref bc the staff is construction colored somewhat ghdb)

Holly is a employee for him! She does mostly whatever he asks, but you see her mostly as the game tables (..she might have a sillllly gambling addiction totally noy a serious onnneee..) and help bartend when needed. she also sorta a pain in brulos ass/aff bc she easily gets aggressive to some customers and does say some light jabs at him but she does really enjoy her job. and shes actually the sweetest around him, he sorta calms her down a fuck ton so easily

Holly is a fallen angel! She sorta got kicked out from heaven for her violent, protective outbursts . She had 3 adopted kids up there who was basically her life, but when you have that taken away she sorta. justtt.. disliked heaven and everything else.

She actually worked with satan for a small bit since he allowed her to go nuts with her anger, but she realized he was tooooo ✨️dramatic✨️/silly and sorta left and wandered around Broiler city till she got a job at bru/los casino!

Holly actually sorta gained feelings for him first after a few months, since..he actually seemed pretty nice and stuff. Yeah hes stressed out of his god damn mind but still! She often makes pastries/sweets for him and drops it off by his desk when no one is really looking. He talks about how good the basket of sweets and etc was to her a bunch and she just "ehh they prolly know or something" fhhr shes very good at hiding her feelings for him i think- she rather die than have ann/ie or an/ton know she has a crush for the bartender

i do imagine satan have the moles take her locket as well as the spirits since satan is gonna be petty like that/silly so like. satan sortaaa messed up with that bc shes easilly angry and already mad theres hellspawn everywhere and now he took a special locket with a picture of her kids n there??? nope he gotta die/silly

shes verrry showoffy and sorta verrry blunt and mean to others except, bru.lo and the customers since she does want to keep her job and she does enjoy it. She sorta has more braincells than ann/ie and ant/on but shes still like. on the level of goofniess as them/pos

im sorry cant you tell i love her very much?? hdjdj

[partyhardyontitanic]

💕 & 🕊️ for either annie or osomatsu :3

Man, you guys really love the dove one even though "tell us a random fun fact!" type questions are the bane of my existence but it's ok <3 anyways I'm gonna do both of em because weeeeee <3

Osomatsu

💕: Who confessed first and how? Did it go as planned or did shenanigans ensue?

Osomatsu really, desperately wanted to confess first. But he was absolutely TERRIFIED of doing so. It took him like two weeks to really build up the courage. Planning how to do it was out of the question, he intended to wing it and just tell Krissie while they were hanging out in a bar. However, before the words "will you go out with me?" even left his mouth, Kristophine was already telling him how badly she wants him. Carnally

Needless to say Osomatsu passed out with a nosebleed and a boner on the spot

🕊️: Give just a general domestic tidbit for em (things they like about each other, routines, habits, and just overall sweet stuff)

Kristophine loves encouraging Osomatsu to beat annoying people up funny cartoon style usually Iyami. He's almost like a personal cheerleader for Osomatsu. It's kind of exhilarating but they gotta be careful, lest they get arrested or something

Annie

💕: Who confessed first and how? Did it go as planned or did shenanigans ensue?

Nathan definitely. Annie was a little busy with the whole adventure to reclaim the spirits, and also is someone who tries to ignore her feelings until they go away. Luckily Nathan had plenty of time to plan how to go about it and ultimately decided to try taking her somewhere beautiful. Like a lovely rose garden! The devilled garden for example. Uh oh!

Even though they tried to stick close to brulo's elevator, their romantic rose garden picnic was more of a battle. They couldn't go two minutes without a ballbuster showing up. And then three more. And then a bigger one. And then those spiky red ones. And ultimately, Nathan only got to tell Annie how she feels when they collapsed in the elevator, beaten and bruised.

Despite how horrible an idea that was, it ended up working out very well, because Annie always loves an opportunity to have a really good fight with someone. So she was perfectly smitten by this whole thing. They'd kiss then and there but Nathan got a nasty bruise on his lips during the fight. They stick to hand holding for now <3

🕊️: Give just a general domestic tidbit for em (things they like about each other, routines, habits, and just overall sweet stuff)

I haven't really mentioned it yet because I wanted to draw smth about it but that's probably not happening, but Nathan lives in the Concrete Jungle! The journey to visit each other usually takes a while but that means they get to go out into the more natural suburban area of the city, which Nathan really loves. Annie isn't much of a nature person, but has to admit climbing a tree with your bare hands can be pretty fun. And the view from on top of a tree is very nice too. Especially cause she kind of "worked for it" by not just using an elevator. And being with someone she loves is pretty nice too. It's a pretty nice date <3

[ihavealovingwife]

I'm sorry how the fuck do I leave to go work on building and then I come back and see little red men having a large wife

stop trying to BE ME oh wait hold on it's brulo's ex wife

i think im happy i repair all day, suddenly

[heartbeetz]

Y'know. If I DID wanna mod Jazz into the demo, I could probably have him swap places with Brulo at the little bar. That'd only be a little bit of work (compared to anything else I could do). Hmmm...

Probably not gonna happen any time soon, bc I have other things I wanna do before then... but... just one sprite...

[psychic-nyxa]

Since you did Annie x Reader headcanons..

Woullllld you do Brulo x Reader headcanons when you have the chance, please??? If it's not requested already and you got freetime I mean!

Order up!

[alanadamoondemon-artblog]

Beatrix the magician

Name - Beatrix

Alias / Nicknames - Beatrix the magnificent and magical magician, Bea, Trix, Orange Gal

Age - Late 20s

Gender / Pronouns - Female / She, Her

Personality - Vivacious / Happy-go-lucky / Humorous / Uncoordinated / Stubborn / Hyperactive

Likes - Caramel cappuccino, orange creamsicle milkshake, floats, sweets, Annie, Her pet hare, magic tricks, her friends, balls, punchball, telling jokes

Dislikes - Failure, messing up a trick, loneliness, sour or bitter flavors, vegetables, moles

Species / Race - Homo sapien, Human / Unknown

Job / Hobbies - Magician, Performer / Playing cards, practicing magic, playing with her pet hare, playing punchball

Abilities / Skills - Magic, spells, performing tricks, playing with balls, punchball player, great cards player

- BIO -

Meet the ever so cheerful magician who performs at Brulo's Casino and is the casino owner's daughter, Beatrix! Her story mode is similar to Annie's gameplay wise, but her story is much different. The magician wanted her father to host another punchball contest so she could play herself due to not being able to the last time, Brulo was reluctant and didn't want Annie to completely destroy the contest again so he simply hosts a private tournament for Beatrix only so she can play and to be better at Punchball. After she had beaten numerous challenges, she was able to become a great punchball player, and her father was going to give her a trophy until Annie burst in to challenge Beatrix, for she found out about the private tournament somehow. She gladly accepts the challenge from Annie, for she wanted to impress her with her great ball skills. Thus, they go on to have a ball throwing battle and later go on a ballble tea date.

Beatrix's early childhood was anything but cheerful, Brulo, Her father had to raise her alone when his wife left him after the divorce and didn't want to do anything with their daughter anymore. Beatrix was deeply affected by her mother leaving when she was only a little girl and that she just couldn't understand why, but she felt it was her fault in some way. Little Bea was sad and confused for a while until she was given a magician kit as a birthday present, Her father got it for her in hopes of cheering her up and take her mind off from what had happened between him and his ex wife. It would actually work for she would become very fascinated by the magic tricks and wanted to perform them herself, Brulo was there to help her do these simple tricks and had a moment of joy with his daughter. It was then and there that Beatrix would have the extreme desire to become a magician and to explore magic in general, Brulo thought it was a temporary phase and she would later grow out of it but she never did.

She continued to do magic tricks and went on to perform for her father to crowds about her magical performances, although she would have mishaps and accidents time to time but she still pursued her dream of being the most magnificent magician there ever was. Soon later on, Beatrix would meet someone who would become her mentor was Madame Crystal, a floating crystal ball being who is a psychic and is very well experienced with magic. She has given her knowledge of magic in general and is even the one to give her own magic wand to use, an orange star wand that helps her perform spells and magic tricks. Beatrix would start to perform in her late teen years at her father's casino once she felt she was ready and that she wanted to attract anyone to the casino while helping keep the casino afloat, she would go by the name " Beatrix the magnificent and magical magician! "

Beatrix has proven herself to be a great performer with great showmanship, and she had great talent for doing wonderful magic shows. However, Beatrix was very clumsy and got into magical mishaps many times. She has yet to fully master at magic and has much more to learn before she'll be able to perform every magic trick there is, but Beatrix didn't get discouraged and was way more ambitious to give up so she still continued to do her magic performances that end in either failure or disaster, much to Brulo's dismay. Either than wanting to do what she loves, she does want to help her father's business and has taken up most of the responsibilities. Beatrix has put a lot of pressure onto herself, for she worries a lot about the fate of the casino and desperately wanted to keep it from going under despite her father telling her it wasn't her responsibility to take on but she is way too stubborn to listen.

The magician is a very outgoing and major social butterfly that Beatrix has a fairly big group of friends. Her best friend is Cecilia Gloom, for she loved to visit her cafe and have her coffee while having her participating in magic tricks, which she is rather reluctant but wanted to support her. She also likes pushing Cecilia out of her comfort zone and getting her to go out more, such as inviting her to do fun activities together. Beatrix was always very supportive of Cecilia and just really loves to hang out with her. Other than her best friend, there is another person she is very attached to. Annie is someone that Beatrix has become very deeply enamored with, almost the very first time she met her. She had met her one very night where Annie was there to watch his performance at the Brulo's casino. Despite her show once again running into a mishap, Annie loved her show. They both would start to hang out once they become more acquainted and have been pretty close friends. However, Beatrix would form a huge crush on Annie as time moved on.

Annie is all she could think about and that she wanted to ask her out despite how VERY nervous she is, they would go hang out one night to have some fun together then eventually when the moment was right, Beatrix finally asked if she liked to go out with her as she confess her feelings for her. Annie would accept and return her feelings much to Beatrix's delight, for she admittedly liked her way more than as a friend, and thus, they would start dating for a month. Beatrix didn't tell her father until some time later, and Brulo was understandably worried about her dating Annie, who is known to be an trouble maker but supported his daughter regardless, for she seemed to be very happy with her. It's going to take time for him to get used to seeing Annie more and that he worries about getting Beatrix to trouble. He's willing to give her a chance, for his daughter's sake.

Brulo does love his daughter very much despite how handful she is. He truly wants her to be happy and not have to shoulder most of the responsibilities, and she is another reason why he is desperate to keep his casino from going under for he didn't want her to live on the streets. He has called her his " diamond in the rough," for he knows she has something special despite her fumblings and magical mishaps. He simply wishes she wasn't reckless and not cause him a lot of trouble with her magic tricks, especially with dangerous and risky ones. What really gives him gray hairs is Beatrix has become very close to Annie and always has her as the willing assistant, which results in chaos half the time.

Beatrix and Annie have almost matching chaotic nature, mostly being rather hyperactive and causing some slight mayhem. Beatrix is probably the only person that Annie is soft to and is comfortable around her, and that she loves to hear her jokes or simply just talking. She easily gets flustered by her compliments and overall being swooned by her since Bea loves to flirt or compliment her a lot, and she sends her love poems or letters a lot, which Annie keeps her letters. They both absolutely love playing punchball and just playing with their balls, Annie is more competitive and a bit rough with her, but Bea actually loves it since its more fun that way. They both have given each other several pet names, mostly Beatrix, who often calls Annie her " Luck charm " or simply " My Annie. " while Annie would call her " Beanie Baby " or other silly names she gives to Bea. They have their disagreements from time to time and that Beatrix doesn't appreciate Annie giving her father a hard time, but they always kiss and make up.

Aside from her usual performances, studying magic and hanging out with her friends, She loves playing cards and playing with her pet hare rabbit named Hopscotch, which she founded as a baby and lovingly took care of it. Of course, her favorite sport to play is punchball and to play with her balls. Her absolutely favorite drinks are either Orange Creamsicle Milkshakes, Root beer floats, or anything very creamy and sweet. But her most favorite is caramel cappuccino that her best friend makes at the Gloom Cafe, which is her favorite go-to drink. Beatrix absolutely hates anything sour or bitter, especially towards vegetables, for she hates them a lot. Ballble tea is her favorite drink, but she likes it way more when she drinks it with Annie and even sneaks out bubble tea for her a lot.

[theoldsecretkeeper]

❝ so how long have you been working here? ❞ || ab!noel to holly !

Meme

Ok so she needs to buy a few eggs, milk, maybe some chocolate and caramel chips, and-

"So how long have you been working here?"

Oh god damn it, she was in her head again, wasn't she? Today really wasn't her day. She had her head in the clouds, planning on making snacks for Brulo again. He deserved some god damn good, at least. Besides after that whole... dang satan thing. He needed it if anything.

She glanced down at the glass she was cleaning, making sure it was clean as it could be before responding.

"Mmmmmm.. A year? Two? I don't pay a bunch of attention to time anymore."

She placed a glass down and went to clean another one as she shrugged. Why would she? She didn't think time was that important. It was just a dumb stupid number that keeps adding up no matter what you do.

She finally went to look at the witch, her eyebrows raised a bit as she noticed how.. odd she looked to her. huh. Someone she never seen before. Oh for the love of god be someone sorta decent.

"You're new."

She added as she placed the glass down. She said that more to herself than to Noel.

"What'cha doing over here? You moved here? Just visiting?"

Might as well give some small talk, besides she was sorta curious about the lady.

[scriptdeviant]

"PSSSSSST." DJ Hallyboo waves Brulo over with one of his long arms. What could he possibly want? He just ordered another margarita, there's no way he wants another one. Oh, huh. He's. Gesturing to a certain angry red guy.

"IS THAT GUY SINGLE." ...What? "DO YA THINK I'D HAVE A CHANCE WITH HIM."

...He's not even drunk. What the hell.

❝ That is my employee. He is about to go to work. He is just here to pick up his gear. Please do not do that. ❞ He sounds like he's going to choke up and bawl. The only reason he hasn't is that ... well ... this is a paying customer, and he needs every goddamn penny he can get. Thanks, Satan. He rubbed his temples and sucked his teeth. ❝ You aren't even his type. He can't get over his ex no matter how hard he tries. ❞

...Looking in a mirror there, eh Brulo.

[mygladur]

guess its time for me to try and explain myself again

first off, I want you to know that I am trying to improve myself and move on from what I did. I cant express with words how much I regret it and how guilty I feel for causing this damage. I will have to wait until the end of summer to talk to a therapist unfortunately, but I am doing my best to improve on my own until then. I know I cant undo what I've done, but I can at least learn and try to improve myself based on my past mistakes.

I really have no excuse for lying about my age, it was a really bad move that I should not have done at all. at the time, I thought being hypersexual was a good reason for it, but it absolutely is not. being hypersexual does not excuse low impulse control.

the proship thing is what I regret most about this, and I understand why people cant forgive me for it. the best I can do is explain how I got into that, and why I've now changed my mind about proshippers. I had found myself in an echo chamber of sorts, where I was slowly convinced that proshippers "arent that bad" and that people who hate them are "just overreacting." I am very ashamed of myself for letting these beliefs get to me, but I can comfort myself with the knowledge that I am not like that anymore. I managed to get myself out of that mindset, and I now despise proshippers as much as the next guy. proshippers are disgusting. there are no "but"s that can change that. though, I am aware that even though I've changed, it wont undo the fact that I did have that mindset at some point. the regret of it will take a good while to leave me, but I'd say that's a good thing, because at least I am aware of how much of a mistake it was to let myself get into that mindset.

the reason why I kept bugging that minor about drawing lewd art of brulo was because I genuinely didnt know they were uncomfortable. I didnt pick up on the obvious signs that they were uncomfortable with it, and I thought their protests were just part of the joke. its not their fault at all, as I should've known better and picked up on the signs that they really didnt like this "joke." I've learned to be more careful with these kinds of jokes now, and to look out for signs of the person being uncomfortable. I feel terrible for pressuring them like that, and if they somehow find this and read this; I am so sorry for misunderstanding your discomfort.

I feel horrible about the way I treated johnny as well. I get very aggressive when Im having breakdowns, even though I dont mean to. but even though I didnt mean to do it, it still happened, I still treated him like shit when he was just trying to help me. I understand why people refer to my constant breakdowns as suibaiting, but I really did try almost every time. I always failed, either because I was a coward or because my method wasnt working at all, which is where the suibait belief comes from. that's not to shame people who believe it was suibaiting, because I get it. Im trying to figure out healthier ways to deal with these breakdowns, because I dont want to make someone feel like johnny did again. I cant imagine the stress my dumb complaining and aggressive behavior put johnny through, and I feel awful for making him feel that way.

the reason why I came onto tumblr under a new alias was because I wanted to keep sharing my art and dumb ramblings. I didnt expect nor want this blog to become popular, and I had already planned to delete it if that ever were to happen. I am not made for handling big fanbases, as I've seen other people who have similar problems to me lose touch with reality and misuse their fanbases in various ways, which I dont want. though, I now feel like I shouldnt try to be on social media at all until I fully improve myself, even if its just an account with no followers on a site no one uses. social media is most definitely turning back the improvement I've already made, so I shouldnt be on it until there is no risk of me going back to my old ways.

with this post, I am not asking for forgiveness. no one is obligated to forgive me, and I'll understand no matter the reason. I am simply trying to explain myself and apologize for the damage I've caused. I really hope that people will at least understand what Im trying to say, even if they dont forgive me in the slightest. and once again, I am so sorry to everyone I've hurt, and I hope that it didnt leave any long lasting effects on anyone. I hope you all have a great rest of your day, and thank you for reading.

Okay, hi, sorry for abandoning Tumblr, but something important came up that I need to share with the Tumblr side of the Fandom.

This account is ran by bagel, who if you don't know

- lied about their age to get into n/sfw spaces

- liked mauricexpeppino art and supported someone who was openly proship

- tried pressuring a minor into drawing lewd artwork of brulo from antonblast (this was before they revealed their true age which made it 5x creepier)

- treated me like garbage everytime I tried comforting them during their suibaits

All I can recommend is to block and move on, don't give them any attention 👍